I really, really wish I wasn’t concerned on how people look at me. I feel like a girl (no offense to woman but), I’m always so depressed or hooked on whether or not this group of people like me, or this crowed thinks I’m cool, or these guys think I’m athletic and strong. I’m always thinking, well, if I wear, do, take, drive, and even just think, that/this, I’ll be committing social suicide. I do care what people think of me, but at sometimes I don’t, and my self image is so low I always have to be the best at X, wear the nicest clothes, drive the best car, be the best man. When in reality I’m not any of those. Someone will always be above me. And I could have achieved something, and it get beaten. Or I could have had a record, and I can’t even beat it or match it again. Then I become depressed and disappointed with myself because its all I had in THAT category for THOSE people. I spend too much time trying to please other people over myself. Give them happiness but not harvesting my own. No matter what I always will put others before me. I’m just disappointed in myself for over analyzing situations and having low self image. But I am who I am and I can’t change it. Sorry, had to rant.
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